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I did it bitches!

131 pounds! That's my "trophy" number. Sixty pounds lost since I came out of denial last June. We all did it, since I couldn't have gotten here without all of you, even the ones who mostly expressed concern at the out and out batshittery I indulged in, and may well continue to.

I realize this is not THE END, but actually the beginning of the really hard part. I can't stand the word "maintainnnance" since (as the philosopher Dylan tells us) "He not busy being born, is busy dying." Peggy likes "sustainability," but that makes me feel like a sapling in the Amazon. (Not an imperfect metaphor, but not one I'm crazy about.) I'm going with "remission." Not saying that fat is a disease per se, but in my case, it's certainly the symbol of one, whether you want to call it compulsive over-eating or just being majorly fucked up.

I'd also like to thank the Academy the little people:
1. Hubby. He's put up with A LOT.
2. Peggy. Even when I put my fingers in my ears and went LALALALA
3. Jim for suggesting Paleo/Primal.
4. Bubbles at work. We track weight loss together.
5. Yanni-he's a bastard, but he's always been honest with me.
6. Bi-rite/Whole Foods/Casa Thai (a produce store, not a Thai Restaurant.) Basically the City of San Francisco for NOT being a food desert, or you know, New Jersey.
7. Public Bike-I couldn't have done it without bike commuting and extra riding and the folks there are spectacular at NOT making me feel like a dork everytime something goes wrong with the machine.
8. Once again, youse guys!

So now the story becomes how I keep it off, keep exercising, and hopefully take my new self into a new job. I hope you'll all continue the journey with me.


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May. 7th, 2014 08:19 pm (UTC)
Well done! And I'm with Peggy on the terminology. And keeping fingers crossed here regarding the job too.
May. 7th, 2014 08:27 pm (UTC)
Peggy is a smart cookie and pretty good at knowing how far she can push me. We had a really good stretching/flexibility session on Monday and she knows just how hard I've been working out and what kind of a mess I am as a result.
May. 7th, 2014 09:06 pm (UTC)
Congratulations and all the best going forward.
May. 7th, 2014 09:24 pm (UTC)
I've worked so hard, I just want to take the moment before getting back to "real life" as it were.
May. 7th, 2014 09:49 pm (UTC)
YAY congrats! :D
May. 7th, 2014 11:29 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I appreciate my f-list listening to all this food stuff instead of anything remotely fannish.
May. 8th, 2014 09:23 pm (UTC)
Haha, well, this is also a kind of being fannish. XD
May. 8th, 2014 01:41 am (UTC)
Hurray! Reaching goal is a HUGE accomplishment. Congratulations!
May. 8th, 2014 03:06 am (UTC)
I was so scared my body was just refusing to co-operate and that the "muscle weighs more than fat" thing was going to keep the scale moving back up and it was killing me, so yeah-I took some drastic steps. I think the two-week weighing is going to stay, and probably the Sir Speedy supplements for at least awhile, although I am going to work the weights hard and try to be ok with "muscle gain."
May. 8th, 2014 02:18 am (UTC)
YEAHHHHH!!!!!!! Make sure that you pat yourself on the back from me. ;)
May. 8th, 2014 03:06 am (UTC)
Thanks. Leg flexibility is shot, but arms are still ok, so I should be able to accomplish that.
May. 8th, 2014 04:58 am (UTC)
I'm so happy for you, this is a huge accomplishment. All my good thoughts have been with you. I look forward to the next steps with you, always *hugs*
May. 8th, 2014 05:08 am (UTC)
Thanks sweetie! I really appreciate it. I know this is the beginning of the really hard work of "life" but it's also a moment I was afraid I wouldn't get to so it's real "weight" LOL off my shoulders as well as the rest of me.
May. 8th, 2014 05:31 am (UTC)
Congratulations! So how long did that take all up? You've done well, I probably would have quit when the going got too tough *g*

Edited at 2014-05-08 05:31 am (UTC)
May. 8th, 2014 05:37 am (UTC)
I call June 19, 2013 the starting point because that's when I got on a scale and was forced to confront how bad things had gotten. The thing is, it doesn't get easier now. "Remission" is a constant battle as well. Maybe even a harder one. The fat cells are always waiting and complacency is a dangerous foe.
May. 8th, 2014 09:25 am (UTC)
You should definitely keep listening to Peggy. She sounds awesome. Kinda wish I had a Peggy in my life, to be quite honest.

I'll be happy to continue the journey with you. <3
May. 8th, 2014 01:55 pm (UTC)
We go WAY back. Karaoke buddies nearly 20 years, but she's definitely been the voice of reason on this journey. I really do love her, even aside from the girl-crush aspect.

I appreciate you sticking with me as well. I know my cray-cray can be frustrating for people who are even remotely concerned with my well-being, but I also think it's worth being painfully honest about how deep and painful the obsessions and effed up programming can run.
May. 8th, 2014 03:21 pm (UTC)
good for you!
May. 8th, 2014 11:55 pm (UTC)
You're well on your way too. I know you have a bit more to lose, but you're also taking it off a lot faster than I did. Can't wait til we both show off our bitching bods at the Mint together.
May. 9th, 2014 03:42 pm (UTC)
well, mine is a lot stricter but it works. I've lost 42 lbs. now.
May. 8th, 2014 07:17 pm (UTC)

I´m so happy for you, and I hope you can start to enjoy your splurge meals, you so totally deserve them ;)

Let's hope 2014 is the year of the new job, but that sucks that dog walking is so freaking complicated and low income.
May. 8th, 2014 11:59 pm (UTC)
I have to watch out that a splurge meal doesn't turn into a splurge life. The fat cells are always waiting. Literally, you can shrink the little bastards down to almost nothing, but the minute calories in start exceeding calories burned they will start filling up a again and making little fat cell babies which are also waiting to fill up. On the other hand I treated myself to a totally "off the rails" day yesterday.

The plan is to keep up the every two weeks weighing protocol and if I can allow that as a regular thing as well.
May. 10th, 2014 05:02 pm (UTC)
Great job! You've worked really hard and I'm glad that work has paid off.
May. 10th, 2014 08:12 pm (UTC)
THANKS! Unfortunately, I'm almost past the kudos time and now it's just about the "remission" and the "life skills" part. Because the thing is...I'm not any less fucked up about food than I was at 191. If anything, I'm more deranged.
May. 10th, 2014 07:04 pm (UTC)
Well done! Wish I'd been around to give support. I'm currently 14 pounds off my target weight, and on a seemingly never ending hiatus. More exercise is on the agenda.
May. 10th, 2014 08:11 pm (UTC)
For me it was a mixture of pumping up the exercise volume AND making some food tweaks...I went modified (very modified) primal/paleo. If you're still doing dairy is giving it up-if only temporarily, even a remotely feasible idea?
May. 10th, 2014 08:31 pm (UTC)
I don't currently actually consume a lot of dairy anyway. Milk in my tea, very little cheese...
TBH I think I've just got very complacent recently, you know? And I do like exercise - especially now I've found a couple of classes that suit me.
May. 10th, 2014 08:35 pm (UTC)
If you can get there on the exercise - all power to you! And if you want to get in touch off LJ for any food/exercise discussions, I'm always here for you.
May. 11th, 2014 01:11 pm (UTC)
I'll keep that in mind. Thank you!
May. 11th, 2014 03:55 am (UTC)
Congrats :)
May. 11th, 2014 05:03 am (UTC)
I still have to figure out how close I can get to "normal" without putting it all back on.
May. 21st, 2014 01:12 pm (UTC)
I am so happy for you! It's been a while...i had some family and job ussues....and some LJ issues!! but I am trying to keeping up!
A resume: I hate this version of LJ! Hugh is coming to Milan and I don't give a d..n ! I hate my job and I am sending cvs out! Does this sound familiar to you? :-)
See you :-)
May. 21st, 2014 04:25 pm (UTC)
Oh HONEY! *HUGS* I wish you were coming out here, or better yet, I was going there.

All I can say is there is some hope---I finally got an email to schedule a follow-up interview for the job I desperately want.

But yeah, it's sad to have gone from a Hugh Laurie obsession to total indifference. (Except where Jools is concerned, and that's mostly the badass, kinky version of Jools that lives in my head. )
May. 26th, 2014 09:47 am (UTC)
Hugs to you too! I read the interview is on June the 12th! YAY!!

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