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Weekend Anxiety

All about food and (ahem) stress eating.



The past two weeks, I've managed to stay "clean" on the weekdays in spite of the massive amount of stress I have going on at work, but somehow I just CRACK on either Friday or Saturday and then it's all bets off. Dumpster Diving, Stress Eating or the Dreaded B-word. Whatever you want to call it, it's UGLY, it's painful, it's demeaning...I'm doing all sorts of addict bullshit to try and hide the activity from Hubby.

I JUST want to get through this weekend without it happening again. Basically the only thing keeping me on the wagon is a date with the Evil Scale God on Monday, but I'm also terrified about how much damage I could have done over the past two weekends and the one day binges in the past few weeks. I feel like I've put it all back on. I know it could be as much as 10 pounds because that's how hard I pound food down when I'm in that mode.

I have to just make peace with whatever that number is going to be and consider my starting point back to the original goal and try to reallyreally let go of that lower than 130 pipe-dream.

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lozenger8
May. 31st, 2014 08:28 am (UTC)
Has it occurred to you that your weekday diet is too restrictive and that's contributing to your eating cycle?
karaokegal
May. 31st, 2014 10:27 pm (UTC)
I have, although to some extent I'm actually eating a bit more protein, even though I've now effectively given up the dairy and grains. It may be the
"what," rather than the how much, since I've now taken back a certain amount of fatty meat, althought NOT beef, as that's the real triggery one. I think it's just that I'm not desperate anymore---although I'm getting there again.

Or you know, I'm just a batshit crazy food addict, so I act like one.
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