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Impromptu gratitude list.

1. Shoes
2. I ate my lunch (all of it) sitting down, with a fork and I feel satisfied with it.
3. My Torchwood rage (or even House MD rage) feels like a lifetime ago.
4. Yoga at Laughing Lotus
5. Especially the Kirtan practice led by Astrud, kind of my latest girl-crush.
6. Bulletproof coffee tea.
7. BART discount for working at the airport. I was paying nearly $20.00 per day round-trip. Now it's abouthalf that...which still puts me ahead of anyone paying gas and parking..
8. New shift-bid coming up. I've loved having the Monday/Tuesday off, but Hubby is not a happy camper. It looks likes there's at least one option where I could get Saturday/Sunday and still work nights. I'd even get my Karaoke day back.
9. 148 days since my last binge.
10. The Wire. It took awhile, but I'm one disc away from finishing season 2.


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Jan. 24th, 2015 02:15 am (UTC)
I'm kind of glad about the fandom rage seeming so long ago. There were times I worried how vitriolic you were being, but didn't say anything, it was just fandom stuff, you know?

The rest all sounds great :) So glad you are doing better.

Who knows? Maybe someday a fandom will catch you again and it'll be quieter and more enjoyable this time around. If not? I'm glad to know you. The internet is amazing - I know all these great people who I never would without it :)
Jan. 24th, 2015 02:14 pm (UTC)
Let's say that it was a coping mechanism for the misery I was already in at work. Not necessarily a healthy one, although it certainly unleashed a LOT of creativity...or wasted it, as the case may be. It was easier to deal with hating YOU KNOW WHO than to face how trapped and unhappy I was and take any action.

If amends are necessary as the journey continues, I'll make them or it just might the realization that when I'm that focused on something, I need to look elsewhere for the root causes...like in the mirror.
Jan. 26th, 2015 04:46 am (UTC)
Honestly, I do remember that a lot of the time you'd rage against work and rage against fandom within a couple of posts (can't remember now if it was the same day but I'd be unsurprised if they were), so I think subconsciously I had made the connection at some point. I think that creativity is never really wasted when it comes to writing, but maybe some of it should've stayed in the drawer with hindsight - I have a few things posted around that if they weren't already out there I would rethink now myself, and it's not even some of my earlier efforts (though some of those might stay in the drawer for other reasons). But I get it, I really do.

If nothing else, at least you've come to that, which makes it worth it - knowing yourself helps.
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