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Started the day with a 5-K on the Embarcadero

Turkey day w/Ivan by Ball Park

Since my Sister-In-Law has shuffled off this mortal coil, there's absolutely no cause for anything resembling a "feast" at Chez K-gal.

I'm completely at peace totally ignoring this holiday, in terms of adding anything out of the ordinary to my plan of eating.

Love and sanity to one and all!

Plan of action

Om namah shivaya

1. More love
2. More hugs
3. More service
4. More Bhakti/Kirtan
5. More Yoga
6. No Binging
7. Finish Yuletide
8. Finish 100 things
9. Finish getting Drabble-a-Day 2011 posted to A03

Poppy Mae
First the anxiety, then the anger and depression.
If I were in my disease I would have been trying to sneak food at the desk, or just not cared and stuffed my face at the desk.
I had my snack at 4 and my dinner at 7.
No binging.
I was up at 445AM wanting to eat, and part of my abstinence is that I don't eat breakfast until after 5AM (because part of my disease is the night-eating I acquired either by nature or nurture from my father). I took a hot bath and made sure I didn't eat my first bite until 501A
The world appears to be going to hell in a bucket. I'm just grateful I'm in the Program, Abstinent of compulsive eating, drugs and alcohol, and that it's been two years (as of November 6) in my wonderful job, which I honestly believe has saved my life. If I were still in my old Desk of Doom job to be the political junkie I was for most of my life, I'd probably have blown up to over 200 lbs by now and been an utter wench/wretch to everyone who crossed my path in the last few months.
I'm not saying I'm recovered, or not a wench, or a wonderful person.
I'm saying I'm better, I'm trying to be of service, live the steps etc.
I definitely have resentments against the butt-hurt Bernie-bots who couldn't let go and continued to be echo-chambers for every bit of anti-Hillary BS that came down the pike and in deference to my old wenchy self:


Now I'm going to take a hot bath and get ready for work.

It's also time for some Facebook unfriending. It'll be better for all of us.


Plan of action

I've been to yoga, chanted, voted and napped.
I'm going to go to work, do my job and try to make people happy.
No matter what happens today, it's not worth losing my peace, my sobriety, or my abstinence over. This is true every day and minute of my life, but today is the first one where I've felt there was a remote possibility of being tempted. I binged my way through a lot of politics in my hard-core political junkie days.
This year (and last)
I got through my birthday without binging.
I got through Halloween without binging.

I'm OLD. We've been here before.
We survived Nixon, Reagan and two Bushes.

And no matter what happens today---I am not going to binge.

Hari Om!

Oh God! Concept art!

What the hell was I thinking? The first rule of concept art-it's always a joke and the person who expects to get the "payoff" is the sucker who's born every minute.
Two for the "I tried, I really tried" file.


I came for the show-business snark and especially for Jeremy Piven, playing Ari Gold, based on Ari Emmanuel, brother of Rahm Emmanuel. Made it through three seasons on Netflix. LOVED ARI! (And LLoyd.) Hated everybody else, especially Turtle. Like skin-crawling hatred. I really couldn't stand most of Drama's plotlines, as someone who'd had show-biz dreams and got out early...the stuff was just so painful and cringe-worthy. I loved Ari when he was winning, but couldn't stand watching any scenes where the character was being humiliated or hurt or just not winning. If I'd been able to watch alone, I might have kept going, but it's one of those shows that Hubby didn't love enough to stick with and his dislike also rubbed off. The cameos just weren't enough to keep going when I wasn't enjoying it on my own.

Still love Ari though...and I tried to love that one of the other Gold brothers exists in a fictional space....

Which brings us to:

The Good Wife

I came to the show pretty much only for Eli Gold, a/k/a Rahm Emmanuel, political BAMF, especially as played by Alan Cummings, knowing I'd have to get through the whole first season before he even showed up. I figured it would be OK...Legal drama and all that. (See my post on LA LAW)

It started out OK. Then Eli showed up and it got really good...until things started bugging me. A LOT.

First of all, I always felt Alicia had WAY more chemistry with Peter than with Will, so the whole UST thing never did anything for me and it did even less when they actually did it. Her "using Peter for sex" scenes were 100% hotter than anything that went on with Will, especially the big elevator scene.

This made it impossible for me to see Peter as the BAD GUY, no matter how much the show tried to tell me he was. It just made Will more of a hypocritical jerk. I started to be happy when bad things happened to him. (I did like him with Diane and could have shipped it, if given a chance.)

The Good Stuff

Kalinda/Almost everyone
Every line out of David Lee's snarky mouth.
Lemond Bishop
Colin Sweeney
Elsbeth Tascioni

The Bad Stuff
"Ripped from the headlines."
The kids!
Louis Canning


Basically all of Season 4 , especially the Kalinda/Nick horror show. Marc Warren a/k/a the guy who appears in every single British TV show, ever, showed up and ... it was awful. The writing was the worst thing I've ever seen. I'm good with angst. I'm good with abuse. I'm good with sexual obsession. Somehow they took all of that and ended up making me hate everyone involved and not really feel sorry for Kalinda. What made it worse was watching in real time from DVR as opposed to just whipping through the first 3 seasons on DVD. So we'd wait for it go get better and it never did. It wasn't hot. It wasn't sexy. It wasn't fun...the ice cream scene haunted me for weeks in how bad it was compared to whatever they thought they were accomplishing. BLECH!

The final insult: Eli in bed with THAT WOMAN! Not his ex. Not Natalie. Not Alicia. Not ANY of the other awesome women (or men) on the show that I would have loved him to have sex with. And not even a dignified sex scene. The fact that MY BAMF Rahm-esque Eli had to have a stupid, silly, libido killing encounter with one of the worst characters on the show was the end.

Didn't watch another episode.

Medical update-TMI time!

Dear Yuletide Writer

Hello lovely person.
Thank you for taking the plunge and participating in the joy (and occasional sorrow) that is yuletide
I'm returning to the event after a four year hiatus and the most important thing I want to tell you is PLEASE HAVE FUN! Remember above all: OPTIONAL DETAILS ARE OPTIONAL. If you don't like my prompts/thoughts/head-cannon/character interpretations etc...feel free to throw them out the window and follow your muse where it takes you.

If you happen to be someone who knows me from previous fannish interactions and has a negative impression of me...well I can't say I blame you, but please believe that I am going to be grateful for fic in any of these fandoms with these characters. My well-known bias against any kind of schmoop has diminished somewhat and most of what I'm requesting this year may have an element of sadness or sentimentality associated with loss and remembrance or just the characters having a lighter/sweeter interaction than a lot of what I used to lean towards.

The things I love are still snarky, cynical, and sarcastic and my favorite flavor of all is still angst. Slash and or Het Smut may be as hot, sleazy, sneaky and filthy as you want to make it. Where participants are in canon relationships, I'm not averse to cheating with or without tacit or explict approval. Non-com: Not a problem.


I will be happy with a fic in any of these fandoms. Really, most sincerely.

See you after the reveal!

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Thank you for your patience.

Report has been repaired and is back up.


Sorry guys!

Looks like I screwed up one of my mark-ups so there's stuff missing from the trip report.

I'm locking it down until I have the chance to fix it.

Will advise.



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