{Take the 100 Things challenge!}


Ganked from babykid528.


I'll be posting 100 TV Shows and my feelings about them. No particular order.

1-Miami Vice
2-Hollywood Squares
3-Twin Peaks
4-Barney Miller
5-Ground Force
6-Changing Rooms
7-Alias
8-Hill Street Blues
9-Hodge Podge Lodge
10-CSI:Crime Scene Investigation
11-CSI:NY
12-CSI:Miami
13-Sherlock
14-The Edge of Night
15-Hawaii 5-0
16-The Sopranos
17-Booknotes
18-Later With Bob Costas
19-One Day at a Time
20-Hot L Baltimore
21-House MD
22-Spooks (MI5)
23-Cheers
24-Zoom
25-Deadwood
26-Dirty Jobs
27-Mythbusters
28-City of Angels
29-LA Law
30-Due South
31-Chico and the Man
32-Baretta
33-QI
34-Heroes
35-White Collar
36-NCIS
37-Reasonable Doubts
38-Dallas
39-Knots Landing
40-Live at Five
41-Dynasty
42-Cracker
43-Mad Men
44-Countdown with Keith Olbermann
45-Vega$
46-Anything But Love
47-Happy Days
48-Welcome Back, Kotter
49-Buffy, The Vampire Slayer.
50-It Takes a Thief
51-Switch
52-Eureka
53-Columbo
54-Broken Badges
55-Bones
56-Castle
57-The Hour
58-Baa Baa Black Sheep
59-Mission: Magic!
60-Torchwood
61-The Monkees
62-Six Feet Under
63-Star Trek
64-All In The Family
65-The Jeffersons
66-Numb3rs
67-Midsomer Murders
68-Person of Interest
69-Arrow
70-The Tonight Show starring Johnny Carson
71-The Electric Company
72-Sesame Street
73-Mister Rogers' Neighborhood
74-Leverage
75-Hustle
76-Emergency!
77-The A-Team
78-Banacek
79-True Detective
80-Justified
81-M*A*S*H
82-Life on Mars
83-Entourage
84-The Good Wife
85-Ashes to Ashes
86-The Mary Tyler Moore Show
87-Rhoda
88-Mannix
89-New Tricks
90-Time Team
91-The Galloping Gourmet
92-The Rockford Files
93-Kojak
94-The Kenny Everett Video Show
95-Solid Gold
96-Faoi Lán Cheoil
97-Phenom
98-Maude
99-Batman
100-The Wire

Gratitude turns everything we have into what we need and more.
Hubby had his gallbladder out yesterday. Before that he had about three weeks of pain, nausea, gastro-intestinal nastiness etc. For the past eight months we've been dealing with the broken arm.
Part of me is feeling that my entire year was given over to his health.

On the other hand...
First world problems.
He has insurance (at least for the time being.)
None of this is currently life-threatening.
The biggest concern is how much I'm going to have to accept what he'll be able to eat...in other words I've already had to un-embargo the rice. I'm still holding the line on wheat/soy, but it's going to be a tough sell when his snack options are limited and my FAT IS AWESOME standards aren't applicable to his post-gall bladder body. So my ego is definitely a factor here.
While I'm whinging about poor, pitiful me, keep in mind: I got to go to Kirtan camp. I went to NYC.



I haven't binged in five years, one month, and about two week. I still love my job.

One of the chants we did yesterday at Morning Mantras was Sita Ram.
Sita didn't give up when the demon wanted her to marry him.
Ram didn't give up trying to find Sita when the demon had taken her away.
They didn't get overwhelmed when they were living in exile together.

I'm going to be 55 in about two weeks and I'm in (kanine hora) great health, including abstinence from binging and sobriety from drugs/alcohol.

I've got NOTHING to complain about.

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I'm not there yet, but I will be. I've been chasing the customer service award for four years because my co-worker Allen won it in the first year we were both at the Lounge and I (or at least my ego) have a competitive streak. I'm hopefully not quite the same psycho who used to have Crack-whore melt-downs when other writers in my fandoms and especially my ships got more comments than I did, but I still want ALL THE LOVE. Of course I'm not getting ALL THE LOVE because Allen got the Team Leader job, but every day I thank all the deities for that. Because right now being the Team Leader sucks!

Anyway...Customer Service Award gets a trip to NYC, fancy hotel, meet the CEO and see a Broadway show.

I was born in New York and therefore I can sing Native New Yorker with total justification. However I've lived in San Francisco for over 30 years and the last time I was actually in Manhattan, I had a bit of a panic attack in the middle of Times Square. For this trip I'm less worried about crowds than I am about food and clothes. There's a bunch of meals that I will not have total control over. I've just celebrated five years of not binging. I'm not going to blow it now. (One day at a time, but the grace of God.)

They provided a list of food restrictions and I gave them the whole shebang. Gluten free, Grain free, dairy free, no soy or legums, Paleo. I'm still bringing some salami, nuts and measuring cup with me.

Then there's the clothing. HOLY SHIT!!!! This trip has a series of events, including a photo op with the CEO and there's an actual dress code for each one. Business Casual, Smart Casual, and (get ready for it) Evening Chic. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK! For the last five years, I've either worn my work uniform or yoga clothes. I hate shopping for clothes and since Yanni shuffled off this mortal coil, I no longer have a gay male in my life who I trust to be brutally honest with me AND talk me down from any body dysmorphia in the fitting room flare-ups.

My game plan right now is to try TJ MAXX, Nordstrom Rack and Macy's with an eye out for shirt-dresses. I'll also have to wear panty-hose and worst of all cram myself into a bra.

Be careful what you wish for my friends.

Just for the record, I'm also honored and supremely grateful for the award and my job. I'm just a little freaked out right now.

My Kirtan Camp starts tomorrow. It lasts until Sunday.
Hubby is having surgery on Friday. You see the problem.
I've been planning this for over a year. Those of you who follow me on FB may not that I haven't posted much about the camp. I really want to avoid too many expectations. I just want to sing, learn to play more mantras and meet like-minded Kirtan fans.
But as with all my major endeavours...so much drama.
Getting the time off. Paying for camp. Where am I going to stay? How am I going to get there? How am I going to say abstinent? What if people judge me for eating meat? My Harmonium is too big to fit in a car. I'm going to rent a smaller one. No I'm not. What if I don't do Asana practice for a week? I'll get FAT!
And now the surgery. Turns out hubby is NOT healing. He never believed it would heal without surgery and it isn't.
So the choices were, skip the camp (or return early) and feel resentful or go to camp and not be home to take care of hubby, and feel guilty.
We decided to use some privilege and just pay a service to take him home. Then he talked to the doctor and they're going to let him stay in the hospital until Sunday. WHEW! I'll still feel somewhat guilty, but not nearly as much.
Today my Harmonium problem was solved when I purchased a smaller one AND sold my big one back to the woman who sold it to me.
I'm splitting and Air BnB with other campers and my teacher Astrud is driving me over.
I think it's going to be amazing.
That "Let Go and Let God" (or Gods) thing really does work.

Hubby is healing...slowly! We're still not sure exactly when he's going to be cleared to go back to work.

Meanwhile...
My Team Leader announced she was retiring and after much dithering, I decided to apply for the position. Unlike the situation at the Desk of Doom, they at least gave me an opportunity to interview. Things move very slowly at American Express, so I had plenty of time to obsess and work through a bunch of Daddy issues that came up. Then I had to wait and wait and wait. I didn't get the position and while I'm a little disappointed, I'm also pretty relieved. The fact is, being the Team Leader in this environment would be a nightmare and I'd have to do a ton of shit I'm not really interested in doing...like working days. What I really wanted was "love."


As a result of anxiety, stress, fatigue and attempting to replace sleep with caffeine, I totally lost my voice last week and had to call in sick for two days, breaking a non-calling in sick streak of four years and ten months. My ego was NOT HAPPY. Lesson learned. I'm human. Damn it. What I did not do was binge!


Recent outings: Bela Fleck and the Flecktones at the Fox Theater in Oakland.
Hubby and I had a belated celebration of his birthday by going to the symphony and hearing MTT conduct Mahler's 9th Symphony.
Going to a Kirtan at Laughing Lotus tonight.
Bryan Ferry coming up in August.

Recent watching: Good Omens.
LOVED IT SO MUCH! Haven't read the book. Yet. It was just delightful to watch actors who are often found drowning in angst clearly having so much fun. (I know what you're thinking, "Where is K-gal and what have you done with her.)

By the way...I know some of you still have no interest in FB, IG, Twitter. BUT...if I had gotten the Team Leader gig, I would probably have shut down the DW/LJ accounts and reduce my social media profile considerably. This still could happen. The distraction factor alone is a bad thing. I'm still here for
now, but as you can tell, if my day-to-day minutiae and dog pictures are of interest, this is no longer the place to find them. (Pictures are too much of a hassle when everything is happening on my phone, but LJ and DW aren't.)

What happens when a 60 year old man decides to start skateboarding.

This is the answer

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I'm also congested, coughing and have virtually no voice. (You should have heard me attempt to sing last night; it wasn't pretty.) I now have to go in to jury duty. Hopefully I will not be an attractive prospect and get excused and let off the hook for another few years.