karaokegal (karaokegal) wrote,
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External Fixation

Surgery is scheduled for 530PM. They're doing "external fixation" which basically means it's going to be Robo-cop Leg time again. I feel like I'm re-living my worst nightmare, including the delay in surgery, although hopefully not as long as last time. I seriously can't believe this is happening again. Can. Not. Believe. It. I don't know if I can go through the crap with the nursing homes again. I don't know if his job is going to be all that thrilled about another 6 months missing. I don't know if he's going to be able to cope emotionally with the pain and rehab and the amount of anger he's got to be feeling at himself right now. It's really hard not to get all up in his face with a lot of "how can you do this to me?" but I know he's got to be beating himself up twice as hard.

Thanks to everyone who's been sending messages and hugs or just good vibes. You guys are so awesome. :)


ETA-558PM--Another here we go again...still no surgery. He says that I shouldn't even bother coming up tonight because by the time he's out of surgery, they'll probably be trying to throw me out anyway. I feel like crap not going up there and not seeing him till after work tomorrow. I might go up tomorrow before work just to see him for a few minutes.
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